Missed Dearly

Wow... I sat in shock for awhile after I heard the news that you had passed... so frustrated that the way you left, we thought was beat... It has brought this all so much closer to home, to realize that within a blink of an eye things can change.
I am left feeling grateful to have known you, to have been part of the laughter and tears... I remember the little things, like, the post-it-notes left on the fridge in our apartment with your signature winky-eyed smiley face... the on-going and endless Scrabble game we would play as we passed eachother in the apartment... I miss you... I miss your joy and the big smile you'd get on your face when you'd tell me about the lastest and hardest new mountain face you'd climbed... I'd cry with you over the silly boys that somehow over looked your preciousness and love... Our talks about your latest classic novel read or your newest creative endeavor...
The day you called me telling me of your cancer and the uphill battle you'd face with it... and all the while, you kept your eyes on Him... your questions and frustrations were so real over your pain and life-changes because of the cancer but you'd come back to His peace and fight on. Likening it to another mountain face that you'd climb to the top with the help of Jesus...
I miss you and love you but am SO grateful for the joy you brought so many and how you touched others so dearly with your straightforwardedness, your kind smile, and uplifting laugh. I am slightly jealous that you will now be sitting without tears or sorrow, held in the arms of the greatest Lover of all and what a joy you will receive to have seen those treasures stored in heaven because of your faithfulness to Him here on earth! I love you Helen and I miss you! I can't wait to see you again soon! Your loving sister in Christ.